It’s heart wrenching to hear stories like yours. To lend some insight, I have most of my patients on estrogen blockers as well. This is something that I find necessary even though we replace to the normal range only. We recommend against GHRP-6 and all growth hormone treatment, so I cant’ speak directly to that. His testosterone dose is higher than what I would start a patient at, but it’s not exorbitant. That, however, is only part of the picture. Proper dosing is dependent upon the observation of how a patient reacts to a dose over time. So, that dose could be entirely too high for him even though I would say it is on the spectrum of normal dosing in general.
Write down a list of the people you need to forgive and then do so. You can do that just yourself, between you and God, or you can do that in person — but it really is important. You can also turn to the Bible and other personal growth books, or seek out the help of a counselor or a good church. Really take care of those emotional issues, specifically resentment, unforgiveness, anger and frustration, and you’ll see that’s going to really help you cleanse you and detoxify spiritually. It’s going to also help naturally raise your testosterone levels.